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As we get older, we start to deal with our emotions and feelings in a more mature way! 

When don't bottle up our anger, we don't suppress our emotions, we forget to flush after a shit and many such things.

I put up a brave front:

1.Becuase I'm brave 

2.Becuase I think I'm brave

3.Because I think I ought to be brave 

But this is all BOLLOCKS. 

All of us have that little boy inside who scared,tired &vulnarable BUT we need to put a samurai face.

Life is a battle, there are winners and losers, we are soldiers and we fight everyday. You win and they call you a valiant,decorated soldier, if you die they call you a valiant decorated Martyr. It's a win -win and we need to decided in which side of the win we want to be in.

It's not wrong to admit that you lose some battles , make a tactical retreat and protect your little troops called feelings. It's ok to be hurt. The most beautiful thing about being hurt is not the hurt but what comes after, healing.

Healing is one of the most beautiful human feelings I have encountered. To me, healing is like washing a pair of jeans after warring them a 1000 times.

It's the same old jeans, it gives you the same feeling but it feels like a nice warm cup of coffee on cold winter evening.

Hurt and broken but not down and out, 

As the samurai say:

The difference between a master and beginner, the master has failed more times than the beginner has even tried.

Murakami,Mottai,Madness

Murakami,Mottai & Madness !


MURAKAMI

"Bad trip book dude!!" said my brother, when i borrowed his book! I did not know what he meant until i got to the 10th page, it was a trippy book, Murakami is a genius. How on earth did he come up with such Stories??? How did he create such characters?? Murakami takes us on trips, trips you'd never want to go on..3 Books down in 4 days, im dazed,confused and spellbound!Exuberant Story telling Mr.Murakami.

MOTTAI

Mottai is almost a Character from Murakamis book:) in a good way!!A Beatles fan,She made me listen songs that only 2 people in the ENTIRE world WOULD have listened to.. the ARTIST AND HER AND now ME! A friend of mine,A fellow Kebab lover, she shall be referred to as Mottai henceforth,A grammar nazi who thinks my spellings are "abominable" and after this blog and all the bad punctuation's she'd probably faint! She sees a silver lining in everything,soft spoken girl who likes to lie down in the beach(without a sheet),loves star gazing and is in awe of the moon,she loves 29C and enjoys bus rides and she treated me to a bus ride,one of the best ive had:)!Say she's a stop clock and the time is about to run out,someone like her can always be counted on to hit the stop button!Thank you Mottai for being there, im sure you dont know..but thank you!


MADNESS

7 years Ago i was a happy go lucky Drunk,2 years ago i became a moody drunk for various reasons and in the last few months ive been crawling at the knob of the door to alcoholism,ive done the stupidest things,met the most random people. Ive read Freud and Kafka and Murakami and Harold Robbins and ive been having dreams,Dreams that symbolize reality of sorts!Dreams about peaches and snakes, i detest both! Suddenly i decided to blog, more scribbling than blog, its been the most maddening 3 months of my life! I had to write something about it and i came up with this. Murkami might jus like this blog and Mottai would probably think this is complete blasphemy, doesnt matter i have to write what i have to write!

Men want a marriage and women want guarantees - knowing men these days, it’s the least women can do to protect themselves.

I got the following email after a 2 week break from a 'I don't want to talk to you ever!’ kind of conversation from my girlfriend to which I have added my interpretation in brackets.


Rules for the boyfriend (fiend maybe?!)!!!


Rule 1: Never go to bed with an unresolved issue (Say she's right!)

Rule 2: Stick to the issue at hand. (Don't talk about her, agree to what she says)

Rule 3: Never use personal attacks. (Jus shut up!)

Rule 4: No shouting, throwing things or crying (Make her understand that men are drama queens too, we choke too!)

Rule 5: No logging off or hanging up or throwing a fit. (Hell hath no fury than a woman’s scorn, so I realized when my girlfriend honked outside my house at 2 am to ensure I didn’t leave her side until the issue was resolved)

Rule 6: Notwithstanding anything mentioned in Rule 1, an overnight break can be taken on mutual agreement. (She might dump you!).

Rule 7: In case if the fight is getting from bad to worse, then things are to be conveyed in a different way, a sober way.(Don't you EVER talk back.)

Rule 8: In case if one passes some inappropriate statement then, he/she can apologise then and there, the other one doesn’t hold on to it, will let it slide.(IF she says something out of line, don’t you dare bring it up EVER, if you have done it, God save you!)

Rule 9: One is allowed to hug between fights.(Completely surrender and use it wisely).

Rule 10: The boyfriend needs to follow all the above rules always! (Aye aye ma’am, do I have a choice?!)

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Anamika

'I love you' she said, I know she meant it. I had goose bumps EVERY time she said it. The weirdest feeling would creep over, a good weird feeling I could not understand and I did not want to.

Life just causes so much confusion, a friend of mine told me yesterday ''life dint cause any confusion, you did !!! '', the thing is, I'm writing this and I want to blame life and I will ! Why?? Why because I'm the station master!!!! That's why.

Anyways, I miss being missed by her, nothing to do with attention seeking but generally!

I have this unique talent of complicating the simplest of things and the simplest of relationships and problems into a tidal wave!! Ask why?? BEcause... That's ME.

I can make people who love me to hate me and the people who hate me to love! What's the use?? No use. I end up blogging like this!

You're not there to kiss, you're not there to hug,you're not there when I'm eating mutton chukka!

I don even feel like eating MC anymore!

Hey now I'm an all star, get the game on.. heyyy!!!!!

pureeee fiction

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4 drinks down, 3rd session in 2 days, 3 things one can think of:
1)Money
2)Women
3)Her

Money I don't have,Her I'm not getting or shes doesnt want me, my problem is money and her, I'd rather focus on what I can get than what I'm not getting.

Let's say, I miss a girl, when I had her or rather when she had me, this weren't the rosiest(read I was a dick) and suddenly I realized that's she gone and my gut feeling tells me that she might never come back!

From a happy drunk, love or the lack of it pushed me at supersonic speed to a habitual drunk, I drink to hide the fact that miss her, I think of her when I'm drunk.

Let me see, everyone has insecurities and I was rather gifted,I must say, god gave me insecurities and weaknesses,.
Well, I'm not the person who can handle both .

Songs remind me of you, dramas remind me of you and prettty much everything reminds me of you!

I miss you

Perso, Mistet,Втратили fuckin lost!

Nulla Dies Sine Linea

Whisperings of a lost soul

The daily boodha walks and talks wisdom.

In him sleeps a powerful animal and restless animal. Where does god go to when he's confused? God is omnipotent,omnipresent and pretty much all the omnis!

Is it a sin to be brilliant? How does it work? Does god need luck? Does luck need god?

So much to write! So much to say!

Grass in green! Who needs green?the world needs more grass.. Wrap em up I say!!

Whishperings of a lost soul ..

yalla!

Rich or poor, strong or weak,every man,when beaten,fights back!
Its called being human.

When a man get's beaten down in love,business or generally, he needs to stand up and fight back. You may not win, you may not lose but one needs to get up and stand !

Life as I see it,is like a desert and we are like the bedouin,we wander all our lives looking for something, the elusive oasis or the promised land.

It may be days or months or even years before you find it but once they do,the Bedouin become settlers,the settlers become communities and the communities become kingdoms.

The once humble children of the desert become rulers of the land!

All of us need to find the promised land and by god we will !

I'm on my camel now looking for my promised land!

YALLA !!!